Tuesday, January 10, 2006
do you know
how much i wanted to win that match.
it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.
1st set was an easy game. we won.
2nd set became hard. games techinques were used,
stupid mistakes were made, points were gaining on the
opposite side. we lost.
rubberset was sure hard.
my mind was really thinking hard, ways to achieve
a point.
my heart was sooo scared that i wld lose.
in the court,
i was telling myself to stay calm,
take point by point, slowly..
even thou my hearts speaks otherwise.
everypoint that was a sure-get point,
i was soo anxious watchin how my
partner gets that point. really.
i was so scared my partner
wld suddenly accidentally lose that point;
the shuttle landed outside of the court,
or never get over.
i was seriously SOO freakin scared inside the court.
they were trailing us like 10-4.
slowly we managed to chase
8-11.
i felt slightly better.
and believed that we could be
on par with em.
do you know how freakin
anxious/scared/worried
i was when the opponent got 14;
matchpoint.
however,
12pts was e las score we achieved.
i was really on the verge on cryin out
in the court when they got 14.
nv had this feeling since eons yrs ago. eversince
durin sec4 nationals.
or i can say this was much worst than before.
cos' it was
4-1; all thanks to our game.
this game,
i felt helpless.
attacks mostly given to my partner.
how much i wanted to think of ways to help.
i cant; but just stood there getting ready for attacks.
right now, my mood
kinda's equivalent to the dark,
heavy clouds outside. its pouring way long.....
i wana go to somewhere and
chill in a cafe of nice ambience
and slowly get over it.
its a
sudden urgeand
yes im going to do that today.
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