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Thursday, March 31, 2005
why can't i...........had a short moment of happiness; excitement and anxiousness. all of a sudden, a rejection just instantly striked all of dat away.. i just duno why she is liddat.... til now, she stil blames me for not gg jc...she stil think jc is e best for all students. and just bcos of i going poly, im deprived of any other options. i cant go hk...i just dun understand why.. why all other parents allow their children to choose their way or style of wad they wants. wherelse, i dun have a choice but to obey wad she says. and if i disobey it, im defiant....i dun understand...if i really go to a jc and study there.. and live in a world of hardship and hell.. wil tis satisfy her? if my happiness is sacrificed to achieve her happiness.. in return, will she be truely happy? i thought all mothers would want best for her children, would want them to be happy with wadever they are or accept em for wad they are... budden unfortunately, i dun have dat blessing. to her, obeying her is her happiness.....*sign.. i really wana go tis hk trip. however, not all things wil turn out good. i guess i can only be with em at e airport and see em leaving me, heading to hk. while here im, doing nth .... staying in s'pore..='((.everything's over. tell me tis depression would soon be over........
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